2002-10-20 - 8:46 p.m.
so strong
and yet so weak
how much longer can we hold on?
i'm not ready to say good bye
it hurts so much
the pain is eating me alive
a dark hole
a void, freezing me inside
why?
why?
WHY?
so much pain
so much anger
inside its tearing me apart
i want to cry, to weep, to wail
to shout, to scream
to screach at the top of my lungs
it's not fair
life is not fair
they're all so young
or old
or middle-aged
each time, it hurts so much
like a sudden knife in the back
no
the pain is deeper then that
an ache, deep in the depths of the soul
an emptiness that can never be filled
a wound that will never heal
why does it have to hurt so much?
why?
Oh, why?
i wish i could rest
forget it all
pretend like nothing has happened
but how long will that last?
sorrow is gripping my heart
numbing my soul
What'll I do?
What can anyone do?
why?
damn it
WHY?
AHH!
There is no why.
There just is,
and life goes on.
