2004-12-17 - 10:04 p.m.
You shine so brightly in my dreams,
so alive.
So vibrant- my memories o you.
Every night i siee you laughing, smiling, singing
living,
so full of joy,
or passion,
of celebration for the beauty, the mystery of life.
But when i wake, i see you as last you were-
cold and distant,
fighting with your demons.
Seeing you like that,
i wanted to weep,
to wrap my arms around you,
enfold you with tactile comfort,
to reopen your eyes to the light of day.
But, you pushed me away.
Your silence drove me away.
But, as i left i took one last look.
i saw you lying alone in bed,
the light making shadows on your face,
a face still sorrowful in sleep.
i tried to whisper 'good night'
but the knot in my throat would allow no sound to come.
That is what you've left me with-
a vibrant memory of pain,
of sorrow,
of loss.
But, never in my dreams.
