2006-08-16 - 5:12 p.m.
i felt alone, this weekend.
i was alone.
Alone despite the crowd-
despite the false frivolity, the friendship-
despite my manic misery- (my melodrama)
despite the faces closing in
with all their tempered words,
forgiving me my moment of insanity-
Lies!
Perhaps, the one great lie-
an act-
playing out the part.
That is all i saw;
emotionless hugs and surface smiles.
Smiles that that take my breath away-
deceptive, icey smiles-
smiles that hurt far more then the most biting words-
This was my support-
a serene cirlce of sentimental shit.
garbage.
worthless words-
unfelt, unmeant.
